[… eight years ago] Read a great post that challenges readers to examine themselves and consider:
Do we pray to change God’s mind, or is it for some other reason?
We should indeed pray instead for what we need… and the wisdom to understand what was given before us instead. What God gives us in response to our prayers is not always what we expect. Nor should it ever be…
I used to think that I knew what I needed, and only had to ask. IT’s different now. It’s hard to trust, but that is more important for me. Trust in God, that all needed is here as He knew it before I came to be. [RP 3/28/2017]
A simple example is once I prayed very hard to God for deliverance from a challenging emotional condition. Instead of directly granting me a cure, he sent me a response through my parish pastor. When on a visit, I confided my plea for help and instead of addressing the issue altogether, he simply suggested to pursue a parish ministry to quell the ache inside.
At the time I thought he was being callous and insensitive for not listening to my story or my complaints, but now I realize that it wasn’t my pastor’s response that needed correction… it was my attitude that needed broadening. God was calling me to a mission – to find healing in the ministry to other parishioners in the form of teaching. And that was what I did for a year after that initial meeting. I adopted the role as a catechism teacher for junior high students at our church.
Sharing my faith and answering the calling to witness Christ before an audience of teenagers brought me strength, resolve and healing that I could only recognize in hindsight several years later. I can say with confidence now that I have experienced the healing I had prayed so hard for – but only when I was finally able to open my eyes to what God had unfolded before my life’s journey.