Examen: Monday of the Eleventh Week in Ordinary Time

Monday of the Eleventh Week in Ordinary Time
No feast or memorial today

First Reading: 1 Kings 21:1-16
Responsorial Psalm: Psalm 5:2-3ab, 4b-6a, 6b-7
Gospel: Matthew 5:38-42
Daily readings: https://bible.usccb.org/bible/readings/061526.cfm

Today’s readings put two very different pictures of the human heart side by side, and then Jesus comes along and flips the frame entirely.

Naboth had a vineyard. It was his family’s land, handed down through generations, tied to his identity and his inheritance before God. When King Ahab came wanting it — offering a fair price, even — Naboth said no. Not out of stubbornness, but out of integrity. Some things are not for sale. Ahab went home, lay on his bed, turned his face to the wall, and refused to eat. A king. Pouting. And then Jezebel stepped in and schemed. She had Naboth falsely accused and stoned to death, and Ahab got his vineyard.

It is a painfully familiar script, even if our version plays out in kitchens and offices instead of palaces. We feel entitled to something — our evening quiet after a long day, credit for work we did, an apology we think we have earned — and when we do not get it, we either sulk like Ahab or we start maneuvering like Jezebel. We dress it up as justice. We tell ourselves we are simply asking for what is right. And maybe sometimes we are. But Jesus arrives in Matthew 5 and says something almost scandalous: do not resist the one who wrongs you. Turn the other cheek. Walk the second mile. Give the cloak too. He is not asking us to be pushovers. He is asking us to stop letting our wounded ego run the show. There is a surprising freedom in it — acting from love instead of keeping score.

A few questions to sit with tonight:

  1. Was there a moment today when I felt something was owed to me — and how did I respond?
  2. Did I hold my time, my energy, or my plans loosely, or did I grip them tight when someone touched them?
  3. Was there someone today who needed more from me than I wanted to give — and what did I actually do?
  4. Where did I sense God asking me to trust rather than scheme or try to control the outcome?

One small thing for tomorrow:

Pick one moment tomorrow — at the breakfast table, in a meeting, in traffic, at bedtime with the kids — when you feel that familiar pull of “this isn’t fair” or “I deserve better than this.” Before you react, take one breath and ask: what would the genuinely generous response look like here? Not the doormat response. Not the martyred sigh. The free one, chosen on purpose. Just one moment. That is enough to start.

Lord Jesus, here I am at the end of this day. I know there were moments I acted more like Ahab than like you — sulking over small things, gripping what I thought was mine, calculating instead of giving. I bring that to you honestly, without trying to dress it up. Forgive me. Give me open hands, Lord. Give me a heart that holds things loosely because it trusts you completely. Teach me what it means to walk that second mile — not out of weakness or resignation, but out of the deep freedom that only love can give. May Mary’s quiet yes remind me tonight that surrender to you is never loss. Thank you for this ordinary Monday, and for the extraordinary grace hidden inside it. Amen.

I would love to hear from you — share in the comments a moment today when you chose generosity over getting even, or a time when letting go of something turned out to be a gift.

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